Hidden feelings

Sky is dark, just like my mood and feelings. I just need you to listen to my problems, share my troubles and pamper me like Im a kid. But still cant huh? Getting comments from you, still show me attitudes by one face replies and one word. My hidden words is you , I love being around with you  but your words always shove me away. Pushing me to the darkness. I told myself I shouldnt care so much since you dont meant it. But I find it cant. I cant pretend that those words those replies doesn't hurt me. I wonder if you ever think of that. Does you ever feel my hurt. Do you still care and love me like last time? Games, lack of communication, and showing that you get tired beside me every time we go out. 

You told me I can throw temper on you isnt it ? I did it before. But you throw it back to me. Im getting much more afraid now. I kept my feelings now. I dont dare to show and tell you how I feeling now. Becos every time I tell you, you treat me cold. Does not reply my text and get angry. I really dont know what to do ... 

Tell me what should I do so you could understand me and my feelings... I can't always be the one giving in... 

Things doesn't feel right now. Our love seems faded. I don't know how to put into words but listen i really did feel something is not right. Gaming might be one of it? I didn't want to stop you from gaming because that what you enjoy most. I can see it. But sometimes... just sometimes i feel that your games is much more important than me. You are not tired and not sleepy when you are gaming while when you are with me you seems tired seems bored. Last time everyday we have endless topics to chat on endless chats on our messages or whatapps. I always tell you that i didn't like one word replies or even on emoji replies because that shows me you don't know what to talk to me or just replying for the sack of replying. You can say I'm thinking too much or too sensitive. But that how i feel. Times where we quarrel I always wish you could at least one time cheer me up care about me. But maybe you didn't clearly understand how I feel. You always told me you didn't know what to reply me but i always thought isn't I'm your girlfriend? Shouldn't things could be much easier to say to chat to talk. I miss the old you. Everyday you could text me asking me have I eaten? Wanna meet up? Sleep earlier. Drink more water. Take care of yourself more. Now you do too just that late replies when you are gaming, when we are apart you didn't text me to say goodbyes like you always did last time when we are apart. Didn't reply to my sweet long text message too. I really miss the old you. I love you forever like i promise. But sometimes your doubts make me sad. You don't believe me sometimes having doubts on me make me feel super duper sad. When i'm moody i want you to pamper me but i guess i have to pamper you first before i could pamper myself without you pampering me.. Because i am your first girlfriend I can understand all. I will understand you but sometimes i just need your little care and attention will heal my sadness and emotions..