Hidden feelings

Hi Bi , im writing this for you. This is all my feelings im feeling now. I dont like how you treated me when you dont know what to speak or dont feel like talking. Like MIA only from me ?! Dont reply my texts, ignore my texts, as well as ignore my feelings. Imagine you the one in my shoes. I the one ignoring all the sms you text me. You look at my sms dont you? But you didnt bother to reply. It HURTS ! i can feel it clearly. You didnt have any sorry of intentions. Girls are easy. You just need to say sorry and show her what you meant they can easily forgive and forget. But what did you do, you didnt. When i tell you to promise me you wont do it again. You reply me, IDK. So it will repeat again? So you trying to tell me to keep holding on for your actions and temper? I have my owner actions and temper, but I wont vent on you. I wont ignore your sms, I always place you at first place. When you sick i always cook for you , go down thr to find you. I cared that why im the one hurting. You may think im very irritating. But ask every girls . Which girls can stand their boyfriend didnt reply their text for 2 days. And didnt even bother to say sorry or explain with a i dont know what to talk to you ? Im not blaming you, but it my actual feelings. I cant really say all this to you becos this will lead us to more quarrels. I dont want. I will be the one holding on to it. But at least show me your effort that you are too.

Feel so weird . The more time it pass the more i need you and want you more. Idk if you think this way but ur tiny actions will affect me. Even thought you mean nothing or mean no harm to me i also care and notice the actions you have done. But if i tell you all of this you will find me fan bahh? Irriating girl maybe ? ): feeling sad for not making u happy when you are down , cant do what a gf can do for you. You always sag it okay just be the way you are . But if it possible i wanna change to a better person for you. But i tried , im weak . I cried easily. Im a emotional person. If can be with me all this time i will be happy . Thanks for always caring about me , putting up my temper . I need a little tiny actions to show you how im really feel .

A text message will do .

A text message will let me settle down my worries.

Use to having you .

Use to seeing you .

But you are not mine yet ..

Use to having you .

Use to seeing you .

But you are not mine yet ..

Feeling is back , but you are gone . What the point for returning my feelings and throwing right back to me again .

Please dont come in and make my heart confuse ): Please .. I scare i will fall for you again ):

Tomorrow Valentine Day ): but still must work work ):

Work 10hours straight today ):

Just thinking but the passssss

You appear and leave like a thin air

Valentine is coming soon . But that day i need to work ): so siannnn can .

It ok jiu suan no work also lonely valentine :x hahaha . Omggg tomorrow work 12 . so siannnnn

But than sunday work 11 to 4 so shuang >< hahahaha .

Waited so long for you . Didnt even text or called me to tell me if online anot .

Seriously dunno what you thinking -.-

OMG CAN !?! SERIOUSLY PISS OFF ! -.-

Closer to 14th feb jiu more love in the air ! LOL . walk whr also couple . jealousdie ! This year alone agn ): that day somemore need work . hahahha today go work got angbao take not bad ehh . Manager gif me de (: thankyou ! :x hahaha hope everyday gif jiu shiokdieme ! :3

CNY holidays are so short ): haven even visit all my relatives jiu need start work le ): shag !

Start work today , wear contact lense but i think not enough sleep ehh so eyes damm pain today !

But wei le mei jiu ren ren ren ! :D hahahaha . tomorrow kenny airpork want come find me at work place :D ltr cant see him sure laugh de ! hahaha ! :D stomach pain pain now .__.

In love with Canon In D . Planning to learn piano cos got great interest in it ! >< but hor , dont have piano at home ): siannnnn . Ltr evening going relative house (: hahah . gonna get angbao again :D

It new year eve today ! :D wooohoooooo . ltr at night can eat steamboat le :x drooling now ! >< one year eat one time nia but everytime eat jiu shi must eat 5 to 6 days abit scary :X hahaha . today dont need work cos part time dont need so yeahhhh . sleep till 1 plus that wake up ! SHUANG AR :DDDDDDDDD . tomorrow and tues must go help out my father shop so dont really get to go relative house ): i want to go to gan ma house lehh ! ): like so long never meet her missdieher >< haha . Wish everyone happy new year yeahhh ! <3 :D

Off day today . Gonna be CNY in 3 days time (: looking forward to the steamboat and meeting up with my relatives (: Some relatives is really one year meet one time only so yeahhhh CNY always bring us together (: Now no student fares ): really dam ex for a ride , bout one month jiu use $40 to $50 on the bus fare .__. oh well , bobian >< today go parkway walk walk with mum (: Brought a dress for CNY (: mummy brought two shoes for herself too ! Both happygirl today ! (: Today plan to buy scoops but in the end nv buy cos eat till full le >< teehees . Tomorrow start work agn ): work 2 days than off 2 days than off agn abit siannn nor >< hahaha . hope tomorrow wont be so bored bahh !

Today first time wearing contact lense >< quite scary ehh ! Imagine u like poking ur own eye ball just to put that contact lense into ur eyes !! Put le can get be quite tired . Hahaha . Tomorrow gonna work afternoon shift , siannnn . Cos only got manager and assistance supervisor ): 3 people for tomorrow than today 5 people work ! Lol. Quite tiring these days cos really getting bored . Always no customer de ): and these days feeling quite luan . Been thinking what i actually want to be next time . Bakery ? Vet? But yeahhh i have lots of interest in fashion clothing , maybe that where i will walk towards to (: hope i can get into the ite courses that i want to be in. Been feeling distance nowadays . Dunno why , complicated feelings been through me . But cant really express myself . Been a happy go lucky person for 17 years so yeahhh cant really express any out :o

Working tomorrow ! >< Abit siannnn of it already. Jiayou working bahhh .

Just choose my ITE courses waiting for the result ! Hope can enter what i want in my first choice.

This course can help me with my future dream >< so yeahhhh ! Jys ! :D

Tomorrow work 3 to 9 (: short day . Quite use to my work already but yeahhhh still tiring cos everyday come bak from work still need to jog for 30minute sometimes feel like stopping at only 10min but thann still cant :x hahahaha . Sometimes feel abit empty , miss those times where being love by someone . Just saying only but i really miss those times being love by someone (: Hope everything will go smoothly bahhh (: