Please .. Contact me . Don't ignore me anymore longer.
I really can't take it muchhh longer..... Its been 5 days

Pieces of feelings left unspoken

It has been three days.. What have happen? Me myself I do not know how could I overcome this all by myself. We have been through ups and downs together this 1 year and lots of things have been happening this year. People change? I doubt so. Its the nature of the LOVE. every relationship have go through this only SOME will get through it. I hope we could. I admit your one word replies/one emojis replies do affect me because its shows me that why do have such a big gap of communication? Lack of communication can kills a relationship. After that "breakup" and "patchback" i have been feeling very insecure. Because you didnt suggest meetup like you always did, you didnt told me that you miss me anymore unless i did, when im sick you didnt visit me like you did last time. Maybe you didnt change maybe its just "xiguan le". That why all my insecure have been killing you i guess? I tried so hard to ignore the fact that you have been ignoring me for this past 3 days. I told myself to give you time to cool down. To process what i have say and to think clearly. I can see, from games you chat with others, all i can see. But i chose not to speak up because im scared that i will affect your mood. I just hanging here don't know what to do next. I don't know where is wrong? Speaking up a problem in a relationship isit wrong? We need to solve together and not avoiding and "pretending" the problem did not exist. Now im just invisible to you. I just need your assurance badly. I just need you badly.. I just need to clear things with you. I just wanted to know this second chance is being cherished. I starting to doubt myself if im really the right one for you. Im just a simple girl.

Hidden feelings

Sky is dark, just like my mood and feelings. I just need you to listen to my problems, share my troubles and pamper me like Im a kid. But still cant huh? Getting comments from you, still show me attitudes by one face replies and one word. My hidden words is you , I love being around with you  but your words always shove me away. Pushing me to the darkness. I told myself I shouldnt care so much since you dont meant it. But I find it cant. I cant pretend that those words those replies doesn't hurt me. I wonder if you ever think of that. Does you ever feel my hurt. Do you still care and love me like last time? Games, lack of communication, and showing that you get tired beside me every time we go out. 

You told me I can throw temper on you isnt it ? I did it before. But you throw it back to me. Im getting much more afraid now. I kept my feelings now. I dont dare to show and tell you how I feeling now. Becos every time I tell you, you treat me cold. Does not reply my text and get angry. I really dont know what to do ... 

Tell me what should I do so you could understand me and my feelings... I can't always be the one giving in... 

Things doesn't feel right now. Our love seems faded. I don't know how to put into words but listen i really did feel something is not right. Gaming might be one of it? I didn't want to stop you from gaming because that what you enjoy most. I can see it. But sometimes... just sometimes i feel that your games is much more important than me. You are not tired and not sleepy when you are gaming while when you are with me you seems tired seems bored. Last time everyday we have endless topics to chat on endless chats on our messages or whatapps. I always tell you that i didn't like one word replies or even on emoji replies because that shows me you don't know what to talk to me or just replying for the sack of replying. You can say I'm thinking too much or too sensitive. But that how i feel. Times where we quarrel I always wish you could at least one time cheer me up care about me. But maybe you didn't clearly understand how I feel. You always told me you didn't know what to reply me but i always thought isn't I'm your girlfriend? Shouldn't things could be much easier to say to chat to talk. I miss the old you. Everyday you could text me asking me have I eaten? Wanna meet up? Sleep earlier. Drink more water. Take care of yourself more. Now you do too just that late replies when you are gaming, when we are apart you didn't text me to say goodbyes like you always did last time when we are apart. Didn't reply to my sweet long text message too. I really miss the old you. I love you forever like i promise. But sometimes your doubts make me sad. You don't believe me sometimes having doubts on me make me feel super duper sad. When i'm moody i want you to pamper me but i guess i have to pamper you first before i could pamper myself without you pampering me.. Because i am your first girlfriend I can understand all. I will understand you but sometimes i just need your little care and attention will heal my sadness and emotions.. 

Hidden feelings

Hi Bi , im writing this for you. This is all my feelings im feeling now. I dont like how you treated me when you dont know what to speak or dont feel like talking. Like MIA only from me ?! Dont reply my texts, ignore my texts, as well as ignore my feelings. Imagine you the one in my shoes. I the one ignoring all the sms you text me. You look at my sms dont you? But you didnt bother to reply. It HURTS ! i can feel it clearly. You didnt have any sorry of intentions. Girls are easy. You just need to say sorry and show her what you meant they can easily forgive and forget. But what did you do, you didnt. When i tell you to promise me you wont do it again. You reply me, IDK. So it will repeat again? So you trying to tell me to keep holding on for your actions and temper? I have my owner actions and temper, but I wont vent on you. I wont ignore your sms, I always place you at first place. When you sick i always cook for you , go down thr to find you. I cared that why im the one hurting. You may think im very irritating. But ask every girls . Which girls can stand their boyfriend didnt reply their text for 2 days. And didnt even bother to say sorry or explain with a i dont know what to talk to you ? Im not blaming you, but it my actual feelings. I cant really say all this to you becos this will lead us to more quarrels. I dont want. I will be the one holding on to it. But at least show me your effort that you are too.

Feel so weird . The more time it pass the more i need you and want you more. Idk if you think this way but ur tiny actions will affect me. Even thought you mean nothing or mean no harm to me i also care and notice the actions you have done. But if i tell you all of this you will find me fan bahh? Irriating girl maybe ? ): feeling sad for not making u happy when you are down , cant do what a gf can do for you. You always sag it okay just be the way you are . But if it possible i wanna change to a better person for you. But i tried , im weak . I cried easily. Im a emotional person. If can be with me all this time i will be happy . Thanks for always caring about me , putting up my temper . I need a little tiny actions to show you how im really feel .

A text message will do .

A text message will let me settle down my worries.

Use to having you .

Use to seeing you .

But you are not mine yet ..

Use to having you .

Use to seeing you .

But you are not mine yet ..

Feeling is back , but you are gone . What the point for returning my feelings and throwing right back to me again .

Please dont come in and make my heart confuse ): Please .. I scare i will fall for you again ):

Tomorrow Valentine Day ): but still must work work ):

Work 10hours straight today ):

Just thinking but the passssss

You appear and leave like a thin air

Valentine is coming soon . But that day i need to work ): so siannnn can .

It ok jiu suan no work also lonely valentine :x hahaha . Omggg tomorrow work 12 . so siannnnn

But than sunday work 11 to 4 so shuang >< hahahaha .

Waited so long for you . Didnt even text or called me to tell me if online anot .

Seriously dunno what you thinking -.-

OMG CAN !?! SERIOUSLY PISS OFF ! -.-

Closer to 14th feb jiu more love in the air ! LOL . walk whr also couple . jealousdie ! This year alone agn ): that day somemore need work . hahahha today go work got angbao take not bad ehh . Manager gif me de (: thankyou ! :x hahaha hope everyday gif jiu shiokdieme ! :3

CNY holidays are so short ): haven even visit all my relatives jiu need start work le ): shag !

Start work today , wear contact lense but i think not enough sleep ehh so eyes damm pain today !

But wei le mei jiu ren ren ren ! :D hahahaha . tomorrow kenny airpork want come find me at work place :D ltr cant see him sure laugh de ! hahaha ! :D stomach pain pain now .__.